Sunday, February 28, 2010

1-3-2010


today is the 1st day for march. also the first day and a new start for myself.


y am i say so ... coz i think so more than 2 days dy . i decide to give up the relation between me and him...


last night i was sad and feel stupid. y.. y ... i know all that true b4, but y ??? y i run away from tis??? y ? y untill last night i just reliaze the problem that i run away from it ???


i promise yo myself ... wat i'm going to do ... is start from now, i will give up him in my life. i will use 2 weeks until one month to forget him...


i should do it ... i can do it ... if got chance , i will leave segt for sometime... coz i really sad when see him ... wat i sad is the hope he give toward me ... but wat i get and feel is nothing and dissapointed on it ...


i can do it ... i wont wait him anymore ... i need and should forget him ... give up the thing are not suitable for me ... wont regret ... wont .....

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

10-2-2010 SUddently .... feel ... xxxxxxx...


今天,并没什么特别的事情发生。但很多东西,却从身边学到了。


有时,会突然有感而发。在想,其实,很多事,很多话,是从人的口讲出的。意思是,就算是错,但一旦那人不诚实,或自私,原本的事实就不会是那样。。。


在想,其实,这世界不会有道理,或真理。为什么?因为每个人的想法没办法一样,只有接近。就因为一点的偏差,发生事情时,都在站在自己的立场讲话。这时,就公说公有理,婆说婆有理。所谓的真理,就永远都不会出现。因为人的私心,偏心,不诚心... ^^


在想,我就快出国了。事情虽然很小件,但是我却想珍惜,在出国前的时间及日子...因为,舍不得。或许,有的人会认为,白痴。但是,想想万一吧。如果,我,发生什么事呢?可能我想是真得有点夸张。但是请问,你能确保,我出国一趟会平安回来吗? 你也只能说听天由命吧...^^


人生要加油。人生要活得有意义,做自己想做的事情...珍惜...

Friday, February 5, 2010

5-2-2010 normal mood....


今天,心情,没什么...就像平常一样...


最近,我跟他都在讯息联络吧...嗯,不算不好,不算很好。就中等啦。

因为,我要出国8天了,没得跟他联络,所以只好前两个星期跟他联络。就像现在...(废!)


嗯,最近,家里出了点事。唯一的解释,就是我爸被骗,相信错人。而我,很失败,没尽到大女儿的责任...所以,决定...今年是我要赚钱的一年...我打算做网拍...打算帮我爸的生意。还有打理好我的生意...


加油,今年会更好...ADD OIL ....add oiling in everything ... in my all relationship v my family, frens, lover ,relative... and my business ......


Wednesday, February 3, 2010

3-2-2010

头脑空空,心乱乱..好难解释我现在的心情...有时真的,觉得很累...人生,有很多道理要你我学习。人生,也因为有很多人,所以要改变...

感情,让我一塌糊涂...有时会觉得很累。喜欢就付出,不喜欢就放弃。如果,两方都有感觉呢?却不想在一起?那怎么办?

在考虑着,我去korea的时候,不告诉他。但却会写信告诉他啦...等我回来,不动会怎样哄?
有时会那样想。但是,如果,我回来,发生不好的事...结果不是我想的呢?那就好笑咯。

我也决定了,我会等他多半年吧...直到我生日的那天...如果,我们还是那样,那很好...我会因此而放弃。因为,最后的努力...也尽力了...

或许,我不是一个很好的人。而且,我脾气很坏。我没办法想chen ee 那样。很nice...脾气很好。我还没到那个境界...也因为那样有时,我觉得自己很失败!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!